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Looking at the title you must have known that I'm either really pissed right now, or too lazy that I couldn't be bothered thinking of any good topic to write. Well actually, both suits me right now, but I'm more to being really pissed right now. Can't explain why, and I don't think anyone knows why. Look, it's not like one thing happened and suddenly I'm in a really shit mood. It's kinda a built up of many simple yet exasperating things. Like a volcano... hiding the anger and feelings deep down inside, below the surface, for years and years until one day, when it errupted out to the surface, and bursed out uncontrollably. But in my case, it's days after days instead of years. I'm seriously beginning to feel that life gets worse and worse every single day. As much as I wanted to, I couldn't get rid of this shitty feeling out of my ... heart ?? or maybe head ?? I don't know.. I don't want to think about it, but when I'm alone, all by myself, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I really hope that I can get brainwashed somehow, just to forget everything that has happened to me for the past two months or so, although I know that only time can heal it.
Life is seriously getting worse for me... what happened this morning and what will happen tomorrow will just make my life even 'perfect'. Maybe this isn't a very good line of thought...