Obvious

Attention: This lyric is not for me... I repeat... Not for me... For a friend :)
and OMIGOD jo!!! I can't believe I didn't know about this... u're so dead the next time I go back there...

We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are

I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

I've heard you talk about
How you want someone just like me
But everytime I ask you out
We never move pass friendly, no no

And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone
You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I need you, I want you to know

I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song

Per Sempre

Sometimes i feel you like a beautiful light
Guiding my hand through the darkest night
Sometimes i hear you like a whispering breeze
In the call of the songbird, in the distant trees
And sometimes if i close my eyes I can see another place and time
And sometimes i cry, and sometimes i hurt
And sometimes i bleed from my broken heart
Though i will always know i've been loved for always

Bella bocca di rubini, Amore dolce aura spiri, Non parlare
Bella rosa fresca, Lo posso ben amare, Laciamo baci dire le parole
Sempre fedele ti voglio amar, Chiede quest'anima amante
Sempre fedele ti voglio amar, Il pianto sistiene l'amore
Per Sempre

And here beneath this sky of stars, I feel you're never far away
And sometimes i cry, and sometimes i hurt
And sometimes i bleed from my broken heart
Though i will always know i've been loved for always
For Always...
Per Sempre...

It's coming to an end

1 week left of holidays *sigh*.. The rush of having to complete all my holiday homeworks... Goddamn it! Have heaps of work to do! Uni acc crap, whole lot practice exams to do for unit 4 acc, 5 essays, not mentioning the 1 page answer per question i have to answer for eco... Arghh... I hate homeworks...
Making some progress here... 2 out of 5 more essays to write...
And... all of the above.. not just the 2 essays
This is mundane...
Lame...
Boring...
Stressful...

I can't believe I've only got 10 more days of school left for next term.. Then I'm off to uni
10 more days... and of that 10 days.. 1 is spent for speech night and its rehearsal during the day. So 9 more days of studying left... 9 more days of normal school days left... 9 more days of actually waking up in the morning and doing more everyday routine.. i.e.
Waking up --> look for glasses on the table --> walking like a zombie towards the bathroom --> take a shower (+ brushing teeth, etc) --> wear full school uniform --> walk towards my room, get school bag, put on watch, etc etc --> spend 10 minutes for breakfast --> rush towards bus stop --> catch 623 --> validate ticket --> put wallet back into blazer pocket --> put on mp3 player --> say hi to Ailz who catches the bus at the next stop --> spend bout 35 - 40 minutes on the bus either looking out the window or talking to her --> get off bus --> cross the road --> walk towards locker thinking "*sigh* another day of school" --> walk towards library, tutor room --> spend 10 minutes there --> off to first class --> etc etc --> sport / home

OMG... 9 more times of that routine...
Kinda sad...

AFL

Go Swannies!!! Yeah!!!

B'day Song Just For Me

Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday dear... me...
Happy Birthday to me...

2 more hours and 7 more minutes

Mm.. have quite a bit to write today...
Starting from the news that I read from the age dot com dot au just now... A man found $10,000 on a street (that's ten thousand dollars and not the stupid me writing ten dollars plus putting three zeros behind the comma instead of two... so that's ten thousand dollars) and giving it to the police station to return it to the Russian owner (who btw doesn't speak English at all that the police needed to call in an intepreter to well.. obviously interpret what he was saying) and... he didn't ask for a reward. A quote from the article - "We get wallets containing small amounts of money handed in. But to have a sum of this quantity handed in just renews your faith in people." - Obviously does!!! And I mean it.. I mean.. I just lost my wallet recently.. and was devastated about it.. I thought I wouldn't get it back.. I mean.. i thought 'hey.. what are the chances of people finding it on the bus and giving it to the bus driver instead of keeping it for themselves?' and you don't need to be a freaking genius to know that the answer is 'pretty slim'.. I was crushed... all my id, license, bank cards were in it.. and i just bought the wallet at the end of last year.. loved it so much.. That night I even dreamt about finding it and getting in back! The dream felt like it was real.. I mean .. I even thought to myself .. in that dream.. 'hey.. is this real or is this just a dream? ' and pinched myself to make sure it wasn't a dream.. and finally I was pretty sure that it wasn't a dream.. only to find out that I had really lost my wallet when I woke up in the morning.. (This shows that you can't really pinch yourself to make sure that something isn't a dream.. it just doesn't work like it does in TV) Anyway.. Then I called the 'lost & found' thingo for the second time.. and wallaa... they have my wallet.. Well.. I don't know if the bus driver was the one who found it or some other person did and gave it to the bus driver... but it sure renewed my faith in people :) :) :)
And this guy said "Put it this way - if I had lost 10 grand, how would I feel? I would be devastated. I wouldn't like someone else to be in that situation. I just wanted to return that money to whom it belonged, that was all. I feel good that I did the right thing . . . he must have worked a lot of years for that money" - You sure did the right thing mate! Good on ya! God bless you!

Mm.. moving on... I signed a petition with D yesterday.. to bring troops out of Iraq and not sending anymore.. anyway.. this girl who was holding the thingy came up to me and said "What's your perspective on bla bla bla war bla bla bla democracy bla bla bla" and I was like 'shit.. what should i answer.. i mean.. i dunno anything about those stuff and thought that she should ask D instead of me.. coz she's the one who takes international studies.. and australian international politics or something like that.. not me... definitely NOT ME!'
So I'm like.. "mm... I just don't like war..." And she's like "ooh.. ok.." Then she went on and on about democracy, government's bullshits, bla bla bla...

Next topic.. I read from MX yesterday that some people get impatient after 15 seconds in an elevator, whilst most get impatient after 30 seconds... I guess.. in a way.. it's true

Next one.. I watched Australian Idol concert at Fed Square yesterday.. It's free.. so why not.. Saw Guy, Callea, Casey, and Shannon.. plus the top 13.. I was only interested to see the ex winners & runner ups plus Anne from the top 13.. Go Anne! I like her coz in a way, she's like Paulini.. Btw.. Paulini's new album is coming out this month.. or her new single.. I dunno.. but anywho.. Yay!!! Back to the topic.. I wasn't standing at the front front.. but quite close (a bit more front than the middle) that I could still see their faces... So it was a good show.. quite worth it.. hold on.. it was a free concert.. so I can't really say it's worth it huh.. mm.. it was great..

Gotta stop writing now.. My sis wanna watch House on the computer coz my bro has just finished downloading it...

And by the way.. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW! Hahahaha.. Finally 18.. Legal age for everything!!!

Emmy

Wtf is Donald Trump doing on an Emmy stage singing a stupid green acre song? I admit he's good at business... Well.. go figure... But he's terrible at singing... What the hell is he doing up there wearing a stupid farmer costume and those fork thingy that farmers usually carry around with them...
Mmm.. in case you don't know what I've been talking about for the last 2 minutes or so.. I'm watching the 50-something-th Emmy awards on Channel 10.
Hm.. Hugh Jackman just won.. mm.. some award.. good lookin oz boy... Halle Berry looks good too.. elegant.. my favourite actress..

Btw... I hurt my toe... I don't really know how.. It started hurting during period 5 on the last day of the school (for term 3).. And I started walking like a crippled... so I had to cancel my plan with D... *sigh* why did it have to happen on the last day of school of term 3.. bloody hell... Anyway.. it hurt so bad at night... It was like there's a heart inside the toe.. beating continuosly.. non-stop... pumping blood to my whole body.. squirting blood up to the roof.. Didn't stop.. Dad put some ointment on it.. made it worse.. couldn't sleep.. hurts like hell.. then I told him it got worse than before.. he put somethign else on it.. still hurts... then I took some panadol.. It was already 1 or 1.30 a.m. by then.. I think my body didn't have all the energy anymore.. or it was the panadol.. I fell asleep.. Anyway.. it's swollen.. and well.. long story short.. been 3 days now.. still hurts like hell.. crippled.. thank God school's over for the time being... so no walking back and forth along the corridors and balconies.. risking some idiot stepping on my fragile toe... and of course.. no sport.. no basketball which will put me in a great risk of screaming "f**k" in the middle of a game because, again, some idiot who only cares about getting the ball... and most importantly.. no footwork for baddy... and no need to get into the hustle of informing the stupid sports department that i'm in no shape for playing sports.

Back to the Emmys..
Hey the Blue Man group .. or whatever they're called.. they're cool!!! hahaha.. I'm so sorry if you guys don't get to see the Emmy show and perhaps don't have any clue on what I have been or will be talking about...

Mm... the Amazing Race just won the award for outstanding reality competition.. or something along those lines.. 10 to 15 people came up to the stage... and one guy said "we'll keep it really short".. and boy was it short... less than 10 seconds i think... and 10 to 15 people came up to the stage!!! Oh my God!!!

Hey.. I didn't know the girl from Veronica Mars can sing... I like that movie... it was gonna end after the first season.. but thankfully.. because of some votes to save some of the not-so-popular tv series... it's off the chopping block :)

Chris O'Donnell's not that good looking anymore.. gained some weight.. thou not too many.. guess that's what age can do to people

Arghh.. Halle Berry didn't win!!!

Last SAC

Yeah!!! I've done my last SAC.. E.V.E.R. !!!!! It went alright.. hopefully I'll get good marks for it.. since it's my last SAC after all.. mmm.. not gonna post up a long entry today.. Got lots of tv shows & anime to watch huahahahaha ... Freedom!!! at least for another 2 days.. before I start studying for my postponed uni acc mid semester test again..

Childhood Shows

I'm so sleepy.. yet it's still 6.33 pm.. Still have a SAC to study, yet can't find the motivation to even touch the papers and read them..
Not tired though.. Just sleepy.. I'll try to stay up at least til 10.30.. coz Mr Bean is on SBS at 10 hahaha.. I love Mr Bean.. I used to watch it every sunday night back when still very young and still living at Indonesia. My family used to go out on Sundays.. shopping.. mall.. or just going to the supermarket and stuff.. and I used to drag my parents and beg them to hurry up & finish shopping and take me home so I can catch the 8 o'clock (i think.. i can't really remember.. A bit vague...) Mr Bean

And another show was The Adventures Of Sinbad.. On Sunday evenings.. so again.. I used to drag my parents out during the afternoon so we would finish earlier than usual & I could go home and catch my Sinbad show... Too bad somehow it stopped playing in Indo.. it used to be one of my favourite shows... Then when I first came here.. I discovered that one of the FOX channels was re-playing it.. I was extremely happy.. Jumped up and down... Then not long after that.. it stopped again and was replaced by some other show... Then I found out that the series have been cancelled... I'm still looking for the DVD for the first season.. by apparently it's only sold in UK... maybe I can get it off e-bay.. but then again.. i don't think i'll buy stuff from e-bay.. maybe i'll change my mind someday.. when i get older or sumtin...

Then there was 'The Nanny'.. it was on at 8.30 pm... hahaha.. love it.. it was on for quite some time too.. couple of seasons... pretty long... It got cut off at indo.. but when i moved here... i watched the whole thing again.. never got tired of it... Too bad i don't have cable now.. so I can't watch it anymore.. and I don't think it's out on DVD either.. or maybe it is.. and I just couldn't find it here..

Think that's enuf for today... Gotta go get some studies happening now... thou I couldn't work up enough motivation to do so lately.. maybe it's because of the fact that i'm starting to realise that school's gonna end soon.. and all this studying's gonna end... for at least 4 months

!!! 150th Post !!!

To those of you who have been very loyal in reading my blog.. Thank You :)
And you've probably noticed from the title... this is the 150th post since I posted up my first ever blog entry on 23 of November 2003, entitled 'Primo Blog'
Gee.. It has almost been 2 years now... Well.. I won't say much.. I'll write up more about it on this blog's 2nd anniversary.. If I remember that is hahahaha... which I doubt I will :P

Anyway... Mm.. my mid semester test for uni accounting today has been cancelled.. No, it has been postponed.. which pisses me off coz I've studied for it and now I have to re-study on the weekend, which is suppose to be my first and second days of term 3 holidays... Grr...

Mm.. what else should I write about.. I'm kinda waiting for my friend to go online... But apparently she's stuck in traffic.. so it should be a while...
Hmm... I'm eating Lindt Dark Chocolate now.. the thin ones... if that interests you.. which I doubt...

Anyway.. Not a very productive post I guess.. But I've got no more to write.. I don't have a very exciting life now.. Just waiting for Year 12 to be over.. 1 SAC left, 1 mid semester test left, and 4 exams coming up. No more sport activities, no more school group activities.. So really, it's not that exciting... Just waitin for the loooong 4 months holidays where I can act like a pig... sleep all day maybe ?? or sleep in, wake up, eat lunch, bump into bed again, watch movies, take a shower, eat dinner, bump into bed again.. I can't imagine my long holidays being any productive either...
Oh well...

And plus.. I have been writing a lot lately.. every day actually.. to make up my absence before...
Anyway.. - this is like talking to myself - HAPPY 150TH POST !!!

Unreliable A.I.

I recently changed my ringtone... Usually I change it a lot.. Just coz I'm bored.. But not lately.. I've been using this one ringtone for ages... Haven't changed it at all.. Maybe once or twice.. But I changed it back again.. But now I've changed my ringtone... and it sounds completely different. At one stage, me and my sis was lying on our bed, reading books & magazines... Our mobiles were on the table across the bed. Then one of them rang. I thought it was my sister's.. forgetting that I've changed my ringtone... And it kinda sound the same... Well not really.. maybe it was just me thinking that it couldn't have been mine coz it's not my usual one. (P.S. at this stage I've completely forgotten that I've changed my ringtone)
And we let it rang and rang and rang and rang without saying anything to each other.. Then when it stopped.. I asked my sis.. 'why didn't u answer ur phone' (coz she usually reached it by 5 seconds by the time it started ringing)
Then.. yeah well.. you don't need to be a genius to know what she said...
If you're brain is not working properly right now.. and there's some kind of malfunction.. I'll tell you what she said: "That's your phone, not mine"

Check out this website... 20Q.net
It's sort of an A.I. that guesses what you're thinking of
They'll try to guess it withing 20 questions that you should answer... If not, you win
But in the end, they'll pretty much make a correct guess by late 20s or early 30s

First, I thought of a trophy.. they guessed correctly after 28 questions..

Then I thought of a badminton racket whilst playing it... and they answered it once they got to question number 30... well, not exactly.. they didn't guess it.. but sort of 'gave up' and let me choose from a short list
Then this came up.. trying to contradict my views:

You were thinking of a badminton racket.
Does it bring joy to people? You said Depends, I say Yes. --> Well it certainly bring joy to people who likes to play badminton
Is it found in mines? You said Partly, I say No --> Part of it is made of carbonite / titanium & many other things...
Does it shine? You said Partly, I say No --> Sometimes they make the head frame shine a bit
Does it go inside other things? You said Yes, I say No. --> Of course it does! Do you think people carry their badminton rackets just like that ?? They put it inside the badminton cover / bag
Does it make sound? You said Partly, I say No. --> It does when they shuttle cock hits the sweet spot of a descent racquet with suitable strings fitted on it
Can you find it in a house? You said Depends, I say Yes --> You can certainly find it in a house of someone who plays badminton
Would you give it as a gift? You said Depends, I say Yes --> Of course it depends.. why would i give someone who loves to play tennis, a badminton racket?
Does it break if dropped? You said Sometimes, I say No. --> It does when someone who can't play badminton (for example in School P.E. class) got frustrated coz they just couldn't get the timing right & hit the shuttle cock properly, and bang the racket to the ground... Just like the rackets used for phys-ed class at my school.. They're all crooked and broken...
Is it considered valuable? You said Yes, I say No. --> Hell yes... some rackets cost more than $500 stupid A.I.!!!

Sick World

Hm.. I'm bored.. Got nothing to do now, and I'm not really that sleepy to jump into bed yet. And I don't know why but my knees and calves are sort of numb... And I haven't been doing any exercise... so... yeah.. i'm wondering how this could happen
Just watched Hotel Rwanda on dvd... Based on a true story... it's a good movie.. great one actually.. but OMG... I can't believe some people are actually that ignorant and heartless.. Those cold-blooded bastards...
To think that it has actually happened many times, not just in Rwanda, for example Cambodia, Holocaust, Nazi, Afghan, Iraq, and many more... This world is sick mate!!! It's so f***ing screwed up!!!

Damn Eco

I know.. I should be studying instead of putting up a post.. But I can't help it. Reading pages and pages full of small typed-up letters just isn't for me. I'm definitely not taking Law. Not even in my 'consideration' list.

Hm.. I should start cramming up all the notes in the next hour or so to prepare for my SAC tomorrow. Don't think I'm gonna spend more than 1 hour infront of the notebook. Not that I'm a genious, only requiring an hour to register all the Microeconomic reform stuff into my brain. But it's just I'm too lazy (as always...)
I mean.. this is sort of my 7th subject, so I don't really need it towards the calculation of my ENTER score.. But still.. I'm trying to do at least quite well in this subject. All because I felt so sorry for our teacher. He's really nice and all, but the students kinda don't pay attention to him. They still pay respect to the extent that they don't shout and act like monkeys in the zoo, but they just never listen whenever he's explaining stuff. Can't blame 'em thou... Even I don't listen. It's not like I don't try.. I did... But it's just that he has this monotone voice and the fact that this is economics we're talking about here... Emphasise on the words 'I did try'... a couple of times as a matter of fact... But don't think my concentration lasted for more than 5 minutes... It's like after 5 minutes of him talking, the part of my brain that's responsible for listening + studying would just automatically shut down and activate the 'fun' part, which is chatting to my friend.

But.. come to SAC time... I've always hated the studying part coz I have to start right from the beginning coz I don't know shit... Always wondered why I never listen to him in class, that'll at least save me from studying the whole lot... But then as I said, I tried...
Besides... this is the last time I'm gonna regret not listening in class.. Coz tomorrow's gonna be the last SAC... and I'm done with economics.. Just gotta cram up the whole year's stuff into my brain for the exam

Better start the 1 hour clock... Then I'm off to watching some movies.. and who knows what else I'm gonna do tonite... Not economics for sure...

When September Starts...

Wow... 1 1/2 months since I wrote the last post... I think that's the longest gap since I started writing a blog...
Well.. of course a lot has happened since then. But then since it has been a loooong time, I forgot all about it.
Hm.. where should I start...
Well.. I'm studying whilst being on the computer at the same time... So that gives you a fairly good clue on how this week has been a bummer... I have to study for God's sake... Got mid-semester test for uni acc on monday, and haven't got any clues at all about what we've been talking about for the last... dunno how many weeks.. a few i guess.. well bottom line is.. i don't know shit
Let's keep going here.. next topic.. only have a week left of school for this term.. which is next week.. then 2 weeks holidays.. then 2 more weeks of school, and that'll be the end of my schooling days before embarking on a long exhausting 5 year of uni.
I just realised that I've only got about 17 days left of school (not including today) when I read the big number, which was written down on a paper posted up on the Common Room door today
I guess this is enough for today.. Still have about 26 pages left to read... *sigh*
Thank God i'm not planning to take law